name. Germaine Lai gender. FemaLe age. 16 dob. 23 Nov 1993 astrological sign. sagittaRius zodiac. rOosteR buddies. quality is always betteR than quantity ..♥ emails. ggermainee@hotmail.com or ggermainee@yahoo.com Click at y0ur own risK :X
. junk food
. sour candy
. sweet chocolates
. animals
. day & night dreaming
. my fabulous father
. my gorgeous sister
. genuine people
. world peace
. a normal, if not happy, family
. for my mother to be her old self again
. for my sister to be successful all the way through
. for my father not to work so hard and to relax a little
. for myself not to be so pathetic in life
. everything ...
. abusers
. liars
. certain insects
. people who take me for granted
. people who make fun of me
. gossipers
. backstabbers
. betrayers
. rude and uncouth people
. hypocrites
. pretenders
. selfish, greedy & thoughtless people
Friday, March 5, 2010
Can't sleep. So here I am again. Let me continue what I was saying earlier.
I have only 1 elder sister, 1 mother, 1 father and myself.
On my mother's side I have a grandma and grandpa, 2 aunties, 1 uncle. 3 cousins belonging to my 3rd youngest aunt whom I call Xiao Yi. 1 cousin belonging to my 1st eldest aunt whom I call Da Yi. My mum was the second. 1 really young cousin belonging to my uncle. I am not very close to my mother's side of the family. Nor even to my own mother now.
On my father's side I have about.. My grandmother and 8 or 9 uncles, 1 aunt. Although I think two of my uncles were given away for adoption long before I was even born. and 1 more uncle who I don't know yet is serving time in jail. My fourth uncle as well as my grandfather passed away years ago. My uncle died of cancer, while I think my grandpa died of a heart attack. I was pretty close to my fourth uncle back than. But when he died, I didn't shed a single tear at his funeral while others cried their eyes out. People thought maybe it's because I wasn't close to him or just couldn't care less. But they will never know, I actually did cry for him. Just not in public. Even to this day, I still think of him and miss him. He was always like my second father. Helping me back on track when I went the wrong way. Although he has a fiery temper, he has a heart of gold. R.I.P dear uncle Raymond. You will never be forgotten.
And when my grandfather died, I never did get to attend his funeral. It's because at that moment only my dad were in Malaysia, while I and my sister stayed with my mother in Singapore. When my dad called up to ask us to come over and pay our final respects to grandpa, I remember faintly there was loud shouting and yelling followed by the slamming of the phone. I was hiding in a room with my sister than.
It's only right now I'm older that I realized; I never did have a normal family like what most other kids have. My mother has a mental problem. She has done many disappointing things, hence making my father lose his hope, his love as well as his tolerance for my mother and that's why he choses Aunt Ivy as his newest companion now.
Nobody knows the pain, the agony, the anguish, the fear, the sadness, the emptiness and so much more that I and my sister had to endure back than. My past can never be easily described. It's highly complicated.
I'm feeling tired now. Everyday I wish that one night I was sleeping and the next morning I will never wake up. It's such a dreadful life.
| Germaine .†. 12:39 AM -----------------------------------
