name. Germaine Lai gender. FemaLe age. 16 dob. 23 Nov 1993 astrological sign. sagittaRius zodiac. rOosteR buddies. quality is always betteR than quantity ..♥ emails. ggermainee@hotmail.com or ggermainee@yahoo.com Click at y0ur own risK :X
. junk food
. sour candy
. sweet chocolates
. animals
. day & night dreaming
. my fabulous father
. my gorgeous sister
. genuine people
. world peace
. a normal, if not happy, family
. for my mother to be her old self again
. for my sister to be successful all the way through
. for my father not to work so hard and to relax a little
. for myself not to be so pathetic in life
. everything ...
. abusers
. liars
. certain insects
. people who take me for granted
. people who make fun of me
. gossipers
. backstabbers
. betrayers
. rude and uncouth people
. hypocrites
. pretenders
. selfish, greedy & thoughtless people
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Today I managed to drag a dead log for a body out of bed.
I hit the sack at around 4am+ yesterday night because I was busy writing stuff.
Groaning loudly, I stretched myself and stumbled to my desk to put on my spectacles and brush my hair before proceeding to freshen up.
Just as I was about to enter the bathroom, dad and grandma are home from their lunch.
So I came down only to help unlock and open the doors, greet them and then go back up to brush my teeth and wash my face.
Amazingly, I discovered I do not have as much chores to be done today because my cousin's maid, Savy helped me a lot in cleaning practically the whole house from top to bottom yesterday.
I'm grateful for Savy's assistance and thanked her throughly for her time.
It's not very often I get to enjoy the special privilege of a maid to help me ease my workload.
Soon I have already finished everything and whatever else I'm supposed to do.
I went back upstairs and enjoyed a few hours of solitude in my room, listening to my favorite songs while surfing the net.
Then my cellphone rang.
It was Yani, my next-door neighbor as well as cousin.
She is having some sort of problem with her online movie application called PPS or something, because all the titles and wordings had been scrambled up and was wondering if I could help offer a solution.
I stared at the wall blankly, with my phone still pressed against my ear.
That is a new problem for me.
Nevertheless, I'm curious to see if I could perhaps try and solve it after all, and told her I would be over at her house in a moment.
I than told dad I'm going over to Yani's for a while to help her with computer issues.
I climbed over the wall and soon I'm outside her room door in a jiffy.
I helped to uninstall some of the other applications in her laptop that she doesn't use because it takes up a lot of space and creates lag.
Then I rebooted the system, and clicked on PPS again.
No go. The problem remains. My only guess is that maybe her laptop doesn't have something to support the PPS or whatever, lol. I have done all I could and knew.
Then we chatted for a while in her room and just totally chilled out. We talked about our favorite handsome vampire men and imagined marrying them and more, books, and how stupid is life. We just plain crapped. xD
But since nobody's looking or complaining, who is to stop us from acting weird? =X
Soon I had to go back home. I didn't carry my keys with me and if my dad, grandma and aunt Ivy are all already out for dinner, I will be stranded outside my own house lol! And though I can climb over walls, I can't climb up windows. T_T
Just in time. Dad wanted to have a bath first before we goes out for dinner. Uncle Eric came as well.
However, a minor problem occurred between me and my grandmother and so I got a little pissed off and declined to join them out after all.
While waiting for my father to finish his bath, I went upstairs and played Facebook for a few minutes.
Suddenly, grandma called out my name. THEN this is where it started.
She begin yelling at me from downstairs before I could even reach the stairway, throwing at me the usual insults before adding, "don't make everybody wait for you and waste their time!" in Mandarin.
So I yelled back my reply through clenched teeth, "I'm already ready!! It's DAD who we're all waiting for!"
And THEN, just when I thought she has already finished saying what she wanted to say, she proved me wrong by proceeding to tell everybody around her in a clear and loud voice:
"that girl definitely has to be scolded only will she know she's in the wrong"
Although it's not the first time and definitely will not be the last too, I'm still like, what the hell? Have I done anything wrong? All I did was go upstairs and played Facebook while waiting for my father to finish his bath. Plain and simple. =_=
Yepp, people. That, is my beloved grandmother. That's her.
I try to be on my best behavior. I obediently follow my chores and whatever shit I'm supposed to do.
But if my grandma couldn't find anything at fault with me for a period of time, she just simply MUST create even the most nonsensical problem and peg me with it so she can enjoy 'shooting' at me once more.
AND THE FUNNY THING IS, SHE ONLY DOES THIS SORT OF THING TO ME! I HAVE NEVER SEEN HER DOING THE SAME TO HER OTHER GRANDCHILDREN AFTER SO MANY YEARS OF LIVING WITH HER?
I think you guys would probably have guessed it by now, I and my grandmother's relationship is a little strained. More like a lot, actually.
I have never, ever even felt any kind of affection from my grandma. Not even once.
Whereas she showered my cousin Yani with so much, it's like combining at least a HUNDRED or even a THOUSAND MILLION of caring grandmothers' love for just ONE grandchild.
Yes. My grandmother is also into the whole favoritism thing.
No, I do not hate my cousin nor whoever else that my grandmother had favored.
I am only sadly disappointed with my grandmother for always treating me like I'm a thorn in her side when I try my best not to be the thorn.
Perhaps, we just aren't fated to get along. Sometimes it's that way. Some people are like that. Unfortunately, I'm one of the unlucky ones who clashed with grandma. =_=
All my elders always advised me, you must love your grandmother and cherish her as much as you can.
I am dreadfully sorry, but I cannot pretend anymore. On the front, I'm right there beside my grandmother, looking after her, holding her hand, making sure she doesn't trip and fall, asking her if she would like to have anything to eat or drink. Everything a loving granddaughter will do for her grandmother.
But the truth is, deep down, I secretly despised having to act like I really cared for her when actually, I don't. She never appreciated whatever I did for her nor will she care what I think or feel towards her anyway.
I hated people who are pretenders. Yet I am one myself. =_=ll
Okay. enough about her.
So, while I was still in a fit, I sent an text message to my dad, telling him he didn't have to buy anything back for me to eat, in case grandma complained that everybody had to wait and waste their time again because of me.
Then I cooked instant noodles again. Haha.
After I had only JUST finished my noodles, I heard the familiar sounds of my dad's engine. I saw the car carefully pulling up in front of our porch as I turned around. They're home pretty early tonight, I thought. Usually they will take several hours before returning home from their dinner.
As I went to unlock and open the doors, aunt Ivy walked in first, carrying something.
"your dad bought it," she said to me. Then she puts it on the table and goes to do her stuff.
I opened the mysterious container and peeked in.
It was a box of Economic rice with all my favorite ingredients. Curry, potatoes, mini-hot dogs, egg.
Then dad appeared at my side, gave me a cheeky smile and asked: "like it?"
That's what I simply love about my father.
He never listens. ♥
Nonetheless, even though I had already consumed a bowl of instant noodles, I still ate the Economic rice with gusto. There is nothing I love more than a plate of rice full of Curry topped off with all my favorite ingredients! Yea I eat a LOT. I'm a growing girl, kays? xP
After I had finished eating, I promptly disposed of the container and cleaned up the table.
My mood always improves every time I enjoyed my favorite meal. Dad really knows me, mm. ♥
Seriously, I really don't know what would I ever do without my father by my side.
He is part of me.
All these years, before mummy was finally deemed mentally unstable to care for me anymore, dad's the one who patiently kept me under his warm, protective wing all the way through winter, fed me with love, gingerly picked me up every time I fall and nursed me back to good health, wiped away my tears, soared the skies with me, taught me all that is to know, making me smile whenever he wanted, comforting me when things go awry, teaching me right from wrong, constantly guiding me, risked his life and shielded me from enemies, sang lullabies for me, entertaining me, held me tight against the storm, bringing significant joy, happiness and laughter into my life. He did practically everything under the sun for me.
I used to feel lonely, depressed, and left-out because of my lack of friends as I did not go to school. And hence it also affected my socializing skills. Sometimes I felt like I am the odd one out in a group of normal, clever people.
However, now I have realized, thanks to my dearest dad, sister and those close to my heart,
In life, 'Quality' is always better than 'Quantity'.
So long I have my father, my sister, Rach jie, and those people who TRULY care and loves me for who I am and who would not poke fun at me with or without my knowledge,
I am content.
I don't ask for much, I am at peace as long as I live life as a sincere person. ♥
